I guess loneliness is the weapon that instigates m to write whatever I feel in a very clear manner. Maybe that is what cleanses and clears my thought process—however muddled up and unsteady it might be. Maybe that is what I need to pen down my vague thoughts.

Loneliness sometimes quite ironically doubles up as a partner and teaches you one thing for sure—YOU ARE ALONE. However depressing this fat might be it holds the truth. Nobody can protect you forever and be for you not even your beloved ones. It’s your path, your life, your decisions and your problems…Why on earth, would somebody offer a shoulder for you to lean upon forever, leaving aside his or her own problems and chores? Expecting such a thing from anyone itself may seem to start a habit of dependency. And as we all know it takes more than time to get rid of any habitual act…
For starters, this is not meant to be a depressive blog session by any means, but this is what I feel when I am alone…It is bound to depress but then as every cloud has a silver lining, this is also the time when we can retrospect our self, look inside ourselves in a very calm and relaxed manner without any hurry and jumping to conclusions…

Another reason why loneliness is necessary is that sometimes there comes a point in time where comes a period of saturation—you get bored when surrounded by the same people, place and atmosphere. This is one weird and strange time when you literally have mixed feelings. You want to spend time with all the people who actually make you feel saturated:-0… I wonder how can we contradict so much with our own brains…No wonder, we have problems with others…How do you expect peace if there is trouble within???
I also don’t cease to feel surprised on the fact—How God must have created our mind (heart) and brain so very carefully to give them strategic and individualistic importance for them to be in sync???
And yet we mess up…..and how!:-0

Such times call for rethinking sessions…as in such times I only can do one activity-THINK!!!!!Then it crosses all the limits and boundaries…I still question myself whether to I am overdoing certain things and making an issue out of nothing…But I find my brain ready with all answers which I find valid…For sometime, in such situations, I just do not know what to do…Then I sit quietly somewhere in a corner or buzz off to sleep…sometimes even the feeling of sleep decides to be my enemy…Then I resort to what I love to do—EAT,MUSIC,SITTING DUMBLY AN HAVING CHOCOLATES…Its becoming a bit cliché….
Questions like what the hell does she mean by all this? may have come into your mind…
Let me put them to rest….Its not about me, me, me…nor about what hard times I have faced neither about being cliché. It’s just what I feel very genuinely; from the bottom of my heart…
What I try to take out of such situations –though I can only manage to do it in an averagely fair extent—is that you need to reorganize yourself. Having conflicts with oneself becomes pretty habitual if you do not put a tab onto it in the early times…Accept that you have gone wrong and are overdoing certain things…Think over what you say and what you do; control you feelings…Have a deep breath and a deep look inside and it will guarantee you some difference in thought; if not all…Think rationally, not emotionally…I know its not that easy, but give it a try…Oh! Now let me put an end to this discourse... Yet another cliché…

Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I am a peace after putting my random quizzes onto paper…so meet you soon… Hope I will write something meaningful the next time!!

Till then…

CIAO!! :-) :-)