Friday, January 23, 2009

To the gang---A2 M2 P2 S2

We are same, cloned-only in some aspects, like in some thoughts; unlike others.Quarrels, discussions, night outs, coffees, happiness mixed with fear and anxiety, cell phones and conversations, playing cards-all these and many more define us…We connect and identify with them through the times that we have spent together…

Yes we are the EIGHT-EXCELLENT EIGHT, EASY EIGHT…yeah! EXCEPTIONAL EIGHT and whatever adjectives starting from E that the standard Oxford dictionary would hold…All of them would describe us-The sense of saying or writing words like US or WE gives an amazing feel to me…We are the 8,what with one strange person amongst us-We loved him and still love him for he never complained with regard to all the giris that we did—chindigiri,faltugiri,madgiri,chaprigiri etc…In fact he participated in all that with us equally and so we had fun…

3 years…the period we lived with each other literally…day in and day out…Those were the haydays, when we chatted and laughed till we were tired enough even to stand…Coming from different phases, we always had different things to tell each other which evoked different opinions, reactions, natures etc…creating interest in conversations…We talked on books, relationships, had our own share of gossips, chatted about certain common issues faced by all of us…solutions to them, family talks, future talks…all of it…Thus interpersonal relations came into being and strengthened to a great extent…Thus photographs came into existence… :-)

Today looking back; after 3 and half-4 years, I have come to terms with the fact that those good days are no longer existent; they have become a thing of the past leaving a deep impression unto our minds… Today when we meet, we reminisce those days and talk about the hard but challenging and deciding times that we will have to face…Yet we say that we will always have that streak of childishness and innocence into us forever…
Now time limits and beckons us to the future…

I just want to say that—We are…..

A—Amazing M—Messy S—Special P—Perverts
A—Adakaris M—Metaphorical S—Superb P—(im) patient ;)


Now there is just one thing left to do….


Guess who’s who!!!;)

Monday, January 19, 2009

You,Me Aur Hum... :-)

The moments that we share; those that become long lasting, cherishable and special; all momentary and temporary though!
Yet we cling on to them like beloved possessions; intangible and indestructible…
However you share them with others, their joy is known only to you…
Remaining fresh in memory forever, they perform the dual duty of tuning you from happy to sad and vice versa…
Even while they make you sad, they leave you with the thought that no one but only you were witness to them…
But, alas! All of this, you think!
That’s only half way through…The person with whom you think you share all such things and feelings should also understand and feel and express the same…
Only that gives you satisfaction and a sigh of relief—chalo kahitari kalala yanna… :-)

Sometimes its you who are at fault…
Expectations do become a burden to that special person because of you…Then you don’t know what to do…
You keep on behaving in the same old way as you did before…
Perhaps, now they expect something different from you…
Wish I knew face reading or mind reading; I think then…That’s not possible though; I know…

For me—such people, events, situations are close to my heart…
But my woe is that I can’t live in such warm events forever…
That nobody can! Pun…still… :-(

Anyway, for the moment, I am very happy and I guess such relations strengthen me……
Invariably, Indefinately and Infinitely……………….

PS: I found it very hard to find a title…this was the best I could think of…do suggest, if any come to your mind…

God! I need to brush up my vocabulary…I was hunting for words equivalent to people, relations, special et al….
Am I losing it?????

Maza tar PS pun mothach ae…dewaaaaaaa….:-):-(:-)

Monday, January 5, 2009

Certain creatures are just....

Sometimes, it so happens that certain people meet you deliberately; or some pre-decided reason. The funny part is that even after knowing them for a fair enough period in time, you don’t know the reason why they met you and how they know you so well. Thus one is bound to be curious about such peculiar situations and people…

This curiosity level is very important of me in any sort of relationship. This is what keeps things happening, time passing and ticking and your relation wit such people goes on t become great!!! I totally love this phase because by this time you get so used to them and tend to rely on them…One odd part is that such friends of yours teach you how not to rely on them or anyone else..Ironical, eh?

Through certain situations, they try and tell you something which you need to improve on; they do it in such a way which you may find strange…They want you to know your own shortcomings which you are not aware of. They want you to know that; when in the outside world, you need to hide your real elf and put on a fake mask for the whole world except for your near and dear ones. This–you know is true and very right for you, but as you don’t agree to be two faced; you argue and quarrel all day long. Finally—you go with what they say…

Such people are rare to find and I am very fortunate enough to have only a handful of such people around me—barring my family; though. Such people are genuinely too good to be true and thus carry a tagline along with them—LOVE THEM OR HATE THEM,YOU UST CANNO IGNORE THEM!!:-)
And yeah! They mean quite a lot to me!!!!!


My experience tells me that such people come in duos these days!!! ;-);-)
WHAT SAY!!!!!!!!!! :-):-P
Hope at least some people know what I am talking about!!

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Yet another year---awaiting it!!!

So! yet another year is passing by…In the introduction, happy new year to all…may this year bring more safety, prosperity and solidarity to one and all. I say this as I think these are the prime necessities of the hour…
Somehow, all the celebrations seem to be muted down by some amount...Which is a thing of pride, what with top notch actresses canceling their performances abroad and in India et al...People in Mumbai seem to be overcoming the terror attacks but I am glad that one month and beyond our memory has strengthened so as to not forget them...Yeah!may be we are leading to somewhere…
Basically I am a person who likes calm celebrations—without much dhinchak… (Though I am a bit hyper active at time) but then this is a time where everyone should be aware and alert of what is happening around and act thus… I won’t say that all sorts of NEW YEAR celebrations should be halted or banned, but they should be done in a careful and calm manner, pertaining to our unsteady socio-economic conditions…
I am not at all being pessimistic (who wants to start the new year on a sad note)…but some how, compared to all the previous new years that I have celebrated…this one does not make me get up and say or think that lets rock it and party hard or something similar to that. May be that is a bit sickening and depressing for all those who are in high spirits—I am sorry to hurt your feelings, guys, excuse me for that—But then that’s what my mind and heart think and convey to me…not at all being philosophical—its what I feel yaar…

This may be due to the terror blasts or due to my mentally unstable thought process (I am completely normal. You see there is a time when you just don’t feel like doing anything. May be that is what is happening to me right now) confusion or anything else under the sun…
Lets just say that I am not enthusiastic enough…That being the case, does not mean that I am depressed and down under about the arrival of the new 365 daysJ..
I am very much optimistic…I expect that the dawn of the New Year will lessen our problems—the ones we are facing as a whole and a society…My own decision making troubles, I want to overcome them and improve myself-- intellectually and personally..
I want all the people all over the world to be happy (ah! that will be a splendid new year wish to come true—hard to be true though as they say—you cannot make all ends meet—sigh!)
I want to be more matured as an individual and want to make the best of all opportunities that come my way. Want to exploit all the potential that I possess—whatever little that might be—and also expecting an overall improvement in the pertaining conditions…

Surely enough—I am certainly awaiting the new dawn…
Happy new year to one and all again!!!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

I guess loneliness is the weapon that instigates m to write whatever I feel in a very clear manner. Maybe that is what cleanses and clears my thought process—however muddled up and unsteady it might be. Maybe that is what I need to pen down my vague thoughts.

Loneliness sometimes quite ironically doubles up as a partner and teaches you one thing for sure—YOU ARE ALONE. However depressing this fat might be it holds the truth. Nobody can protect you forever and be for you not even your beloved ones. It’s your path, your life, your decisions and your problems…Why on earth, would somebody offer a shoulder for you to lean upon forever, leaving aside his or her own problems and chores? Expecting such a thing from anyone itself may seem to start a habit of dependency. And as we all know it takes more than time to get rid of any habitual act…
For starters, this is not meant to be a depressive blog session by any means, but this is what I feel when I am alone…It is bound to depress but then as every cloud has a silver lining, this is also the time when we can retrospect our self, look inside ourselves in a very calm and relaxed manner without any hurry and jumping to conclusions…

Another reason why loneliness is necessary is that sometimes there comes a point in time where comes a period of saturation—you get bored when surrounded by the same people, place and atmosphere. This is one weird and strange time when you literally have mixed feelings. You want to spend time with all the people who actually make you feel saturated:-0… I wonder how can we contradict so much with our own brains…No wonder, we have problems with others…How do you expect peace if there is trouble within???
I also don’t cease to feel surprised on the fact—How God must have created our mind (heart) and brain so very carefully to give them strategic and individualistic importance for them to be in sync???
And yet we mess up…..and how!:-0

Such times call for rethinking sessions…as in such times I only can do one activity-THINK!!!!!Then it crosses all the limits and boundaries…I still question myself whether to I am overdoing certain things and making an issue out of nothing…But I find my brain ready with all answers which I find valid…For sometime, in such situations, I just do not know what to do…Then I sit quietly somewhere in a corner or buzz off to sleep…sometimes even the feeling of sleep decides to be my enemy…Then I resort to what I love to do—EAT,MUSIC,SITTING DUMBLY AN HAVING CHOCOLATES…Its becoming a bit cliché….
Questions like what the hell does she mean by all this? may have come into your mind…
Let me put them to rest….Its not about me, me, me…nor about what hard times I have faced neither about being cliché. It’s just what I feel very genuinely; from the bottom of my heart…
What I try to take out of such situations –though I can only manage to do it in an averagely fair extent—is that you need to reorganize yourself. Having conflicts with oneself becomes pretty habitual if you do not put a tab onto it in the early times…Accept that you have gone wrong and are overdoing certain things…Think over what you say and what you do; control you feelings…Have a deep breath and a deep look inside and it will guarantee you some difference in thought; if not all…Think rationally, not emotionally…I know its not that easy, but give it a try…Oh! Now let me put an end to this discourse... Yet another cliché…

Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I am a peace after putting my random quizzes onto paper…so meet you soon… Hope I will write something meaningful the next time!!

Till then…

CIAO!! :-) :-)

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Come what may!

No amount of words can give out what I feel regarding these constant blasts and firings which were happening in MY CITY, MUMBAI---In the past few weeks I was not able to put up and update my blog as I was really busy…But these 3 days have prompted me to leave everything aside and leave my comments on these horrible and scarring attacks…
We as Mumbaikars are genuinely tired of the term RESILIENT that has been labeled onto us whenever we face such deathly situations….The people who use this term need to realize that it is not about being resilient anymore---I am personally sick of this term because if I am not going to go back to my chores and other jobs from the next day after such violent and insensitive acts, what other option have I left for my self? How many days will we sit home being afraid of what is happening outside?
The topic I am talking on may not be completed in one whole, that gives an account of how vast it must be and how scarcely our politicians—the people who mess up our lives to a great extent and we bear the brunt of it for nothing, they are not even ours anymore for me—politicians think of terrorism as a very short term problem…This is the most illogical thing that can ever happen to a country…It is high time that we get serious about it…I also think that it should be realized by now that terrorism does not have a religion, does not have a face, it only has one aim—to scare the hell out of people and simply to create fear…Yes I do agree that the terrorists links of 26/11 have been traced to Pakistan, but then let us not forget that JW Marriot was reduced to rubble in September…So now I guess its time we put our foolish and baseless differences aside and join hands to lessen terrorism from all over the world as this is a global problem, harassing even the most advanced countries like US and (Kandahar Hijack in 1999)…Adopting a policy of crude and raw anti terrorism like that of Israel may lessen global damage to quite an extent…
According to me, the firings and attacks at Mumbai could be the worst and most shameful thing that could happen to any government in the world and also this can happen anywhere and in any city…so a global solution would seriously help….
The officers like Hemant Karkare Saab, Mr.Ashok Kamte and Mr. Vijay Salaskar—my due and most respectable tribute to them for saving our lives and letting us live and sleep in peace---gave up their lives only to tell that now terrorism has reached our doorstep and we have to take intense measures to combat with it…I hope that these heroes have not given their lives in vain like many many others…As they say its better late than never…

The rescue operations at The Taj, The Oberoi and Nariman House lasted for 60 unimaginable hours and looked straight out of a dark Hollywood flick…It’s a bloody nightmare for everyone who falls in the category of human beings---excluding the sickening attackers who, according to me, need some mental help…Amazingly enough the Maharashtra police were not able to handle the very dangerous situation and so the NSG were called upon…could someone please tell me what the actual job profile of an NSG commando includes? According to me, it must be primarily securing the borders of the country…This just shows you how meagerly our police know about crisis management and how much authority is given to them…And the terrorists attacking prominent landmarks like CST and Taj and Oberoi Hotels also gives out the pathetically low weakness of our coastal guard system-considering and confirming the fact that these anti nationalists came via the sea route…Its time we updated our mechanisms-security personnel have worked their blood and sweat out to make this attack stop and not let the devastating plans of the terrorists work…Where the hell do our taxes go if not into all these up gradations? The answer is straight into your face…No prizes for guessing it. Let me ask you-how do you think our politicians get richer by the day? There’s it...
We cannot forgo this problem as of one of its kind. Our Intelligence Team needs to open their eyes and look around. Upgrade your sources, your strategies, do whatever…but please ensure that you give 200% to your job…Let us not go and defend the intelligence team as if that happens I have many doubts of my own—were the people behind the train blasts of 2006 ever known? It’s been 2 years past that incident...

Also why do politicians come to visit hospitals and the attacked site after the damage is done…Why waste security on their own protection? Please...This can’t be the way where one messes up things first and then comes around cleaning it up…the politicians are the ones who are responsible for all these violent things…do they think that they are manifesting help by doing such temporary visits?Oh please. We have to make them realize that if its not now, then the time for action might be gone forever and all our forthcoming generations will think of such attacks to be a routine-which a really freaky thing to imagine…

Politicians are the worst things to happen to a country-this is one of the things that these attacks could have taught anyone. They are not human and do not possess any normal qualities as they cannot connect with the current situations!!!Imagine the gut of a particular political party appealing for votes with the heading in a newspaper…Please at least don’t insult the great heroes who are no more with us by doing such shitty acts...this goes to show their finicky minds and self centered attitudes. And on such occasions they come to the attacked site and for their protection, some security forces are engaged to a great extent. God, never give any country such governing authorities…
They do not have any sense of responsibility and the worst part of it is yet to come-we are the ones who elect al these scoundrels and we cannot help but do this as all of them are same…we have all the threads in our hands and yet we do not have any device to cut them…So even after writing so much, I am sorry that I do not have a solution to this problem—sometimes I wonder why the hell have I enrolled my name in the voters list? I am so sickeningly confused and there are so many things that I want to express but can’t seem to find words for it or the proper presentable manner…I am also sorry for the fact that this might seem like a news report to all reading it, but then this goes to show that there is nothing new to such acts of terrorism except the ever changing number of casualties and the nature of the attack…and I don’t want to get in those details as they are very disturbing altogether.
One thing that I am really proud of is that Mr.Karkare’s wife refused to take the compensation offered by Mr.Narendra Modi…That was like a martyr’s wife. Way to go, madam…
I guess that its time we take our lesson and take some real strong action..

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Perfect life???wats that???

I feel like writing about--my idea of a perfect life....umm....sometimes I feel like that just like something like a perfect life partner doesn't exist,so is the case with a life that is perfect...Bcuz i believe that as everybody's life style is different....so is everybody's idea of a perfect life...My idea is a mixed bag of my current life and what i would like to do in the next few years....I love participating in all co curricular activities...anything ranging from dancing,acting,doing crazy things...et al...But I also understand that I need to study...When it comes to that I love economics...Its just fab...I also love to travel to unventured and unfound superb spots with my close set of friends and family....Also...Like everybody else I wish to be successful in life and I also want to balance out my career and my other activities...which I cannot abandon...Bcuz they are like a breath of fresh air to me...And I also would love to learn cooking...But heavens..That needs loads of patience...God grant strength...not to me but to people around me who have to eat the things made by me...Thats the fun part of it...But to speak of my idea of perfect life will include many complex as well as simple things and situations...The complex and long term ones I have already talked about earlier...The simpler things are really simple....Talking to friends on the phone for hours toghether,a cup of coffee in the rains,a ride on bike in the monsoon,night outs,choclates,food that really peps me up,loads of work(which include drama rehearsals and a bit of studies),MUSIC....all kinds of it....It is a true healer...books...dim lights...winter....surprise visits,gifts which are given just for the sake of it(inspite it not being any particular occasion or the gift being a simple hug from loved ones)...these are the really simple things which excite me and recharge me when I am drained out...In short...just like I keep changing my opinions on certain issues,so do my opinions on perfect life...Let me figure them out...will let u know then....Till then ...
TADA!!!!!!!