So! yet another year is passing by…In the introduction, happy new year to all…may this year bring more safety, prosperity and solidarity to one and all. I say this as I think these are the prime necessities of the hour…
Somehow, all the celebrations seem to be muted down by some amount...Which is a thing of pride, what with top notch actresses canceling their performances abroad and in India et al...People in Mumbai seem to be overcoming the terror attacks but I am glad that one month and beyond our memory has strengthened so as to not forget them...Yeah!may be we are leading to somewhere…
Basically I am a person who likes calm celebrations—without much dhinchak… (Though I am a bit hyper active at time) but then this is a time where everyone should be aware and alert of what is happening around and act thus… I won’t say that all sorts of NEW YEAR celebrations should be halted or banned, but they should be done in a careful and calm manner, pertaining to our unsteady socio-economic conditions…
I am not at all being pessimistic (who wants to start the new year on a sad note)…but some how, compared to all the previous new years that I have celebrated…this one does not make me get up and say or think that lets rock it and party hard or something similar to that. May be that is a bit sickening and depressing for all those who are in high spirits—I am sorry to hurt your feelings, guys, excuse me for that—But then that’s what my mind and heart think and convey to me…not at all being philosophical—its what I feel yaar…
This may be due to the terror blasts or due to my mentally unstable thought process (I am completely normal. You see there is a time when you just don’t feel like doing anything. May be that is what is happening to me right now) confusion or anything else under the sun…
Lets just say that I am not enthusiastic enough…That being the case, does not mean that I am depressed and down under about the arrival of the new 365 daysJ..
I am very much optimistic…I expect that the dawn of the New Year will lessen our problems—the ones we are facing as a whole and a society…My own decision making troubles, I want to overcome them and improve myself-- intellectually and personally..
I want all the people all over the world to be happy (ah! that will be a splendid new year wish to come true—hard to be true though as they say—you cannot make all ends meet—sigh!)
I want to be more matured as an individual and want to make the best of all opportunities that come my way. Want to exploit all the potential that I possess—whatever little that might be—and also expecting an overall improvement in the pertaining conditions…
Surely enough—I am certainly awaiting the new dawn…
Happy new year to one and all again!!!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Sunday, December 21, 2008
I guess loneliness is the weapon that instigates m to write whatever I feel in a very clear manner. Maybe that is what cleanses and clears my thought process—however muddled up and unsteady it might be. Maybe that is what I need to pen down my vague thoughts.
Loneliness sometimes quite ironically doubles up as a partner and teaches you one thing for sure—YOU ARE ALONE. However depressing this fat might be it holds the truth. Nobody can protect you forever and be for you not even your beloved ones. It’s your path, your life, your decisions and your problems…Why on earth, would somebody offer a shoulder for you to lean upon forever, leaving aside his or her own problems and chores? Expecting such a thing from anyone itself may seem to start a habit of dependency. And as we all know it takes more than time to get rid of any habitual act…
For starters, this is not meant to be a depressive blog session by any means, but this is what I feel when I am alone…It is bound to depress but then as every cloud has a silver lining, this is also the time when we can retrospect our self, look inside ourselves in a very calm and relaxed manner without any hurry and jumping to conclusions…
Another reason why loneliness is necessary is that sometimes there comes a point in time where comes a period of saturation—you get bored when surrounded by the same people, place and atmosphere. This is one weird and strange time when you literally have mixed feelings. You want to spend time with all the people who actually make you feel saturated:-0… I wonder how can we contradict so much with our own brains…No wonder, we have problems with others…How do you expect peace if there is trouble within???
I also don’t cease to feel surprised on the fact—How God must have created our mind (heart) and brain so very carefully to give them strategic and individualistic importance for them to be in sync???
And yet we mess up…..and how!:-0
Such times call for rethinking sessions…as in such times I only can do one activity-THINK!!!!!Then it crosses all the limits and boundaries…I still question myself whether to I am overdoing certain things and making an issue out of nothing…But I find my brain ready with all answers which I find valid…For sometime, in such situations, I just do not know what to do…Then I sit quietly somewhere in a corner or buzz off to sleep…sometimes even the feeling of sleep decides to be my enemy…Then I resort to what I love to do—EAT,MUSIC,SITTING DUMBLY AN HAVING CHOCOLATES…Its becoming a bit cliché….
Questions like what the hell does she mean by all this? may have come into your mind…
Let me put them to rest….Its not about me, me, me…nor about what hard times I have faced neither about being cliché. It’s just what I feel very genuinely; from the bottom of my heart…
What I try to take out of such situations –though I can only manage to do it in an averagely fair extent—is that you need to reorganize yourself. Having conflicts with oneself becomes pretty habitual if you do not put a tab onto it in the early times…Accept that you have gone wrong and are overdoing certain things…Think over what you say and what you do; control you feelings…Have a deep breath and a deep look inside and it will guarantee you some difference in thought; if not all…Think rationally, not emotionally…I know its not that easy, but give it a try…Oh! Now let me put an end to this discourse... Yet another cliché…
Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I am a peace after putting my random quizzes onto paper…so meet you soon… Hope I will write something meaningful the next time!!
Till then…
CIAO!! :-) :-)
Loneliness sometimes quite ironically doubles up as a partner and teaches you one thing for sure—YOU ARE ALONE. However depressing this fat might be it holds the truth. Nobody can protect you forever and be for you not even your beloved ones. It’s your path, your life, your decisions and your problems…Why on earth, would somebody offer a shoulder for you to lean upon forever, leaving aside his or her own problems and chores? Expecting such a thing from anyone itself may seem to start a habit of dependency. And as we all know it takes more than time to get rid of any habitual act…
For starters, this is not meant to be a depressive blog session by any means, but this is what I feel when I am alone…It is bound to depress but then as every cloud has a silver lining, this is also the time when we can retrospect our self, look inside ourselves in a very calm and relaxed manner without any hurry and jumping to conclusions…
Another reason why loneliness is necessary is that sometimes there comes a point in time where comes a period of saturation—you get bored when surrounded by the same people, place and atmosphere. This is one weird and strange time when you literally have mixed feelings. You want to spend time with all the people who actually make you feel saturated:-0… I wonder how can we contradict so much with our own brains…No wonder, we have problems with others…How do you expect peace if there is trouble within???
I also don’t cease to feel surprised on the fact—How God must have created our mind (heart) and brain so very carefully to give them strategic and individualistic importance for them to be in sync???
And yet we mess up…..and how!:-0
Such times call for rethinking sessions…as in such times I only can do one activity-THINK!!!!!Then it crosses all the limits and boundaries…I still question myself whether to I am overdoing certain things and making an issue out of nothing…But I find my brain ready with all answers which I find valid…For sometime, in such situations, I just do not know what to do…Then I sit quietly somewhere in a corner or buzz off to sleep…sometimes even the feeling of sleep decides to be my enemy…Then I resort to what I love to do—EAT,MUSIC,SITTING DUMBLY AN HAVING CHOCOLATES…Its becoming a bit cliché….
Questions like what the hell does she mean by all this? may have come into your mind…
Let me put them to rest….Its not about me, me, me…nor about what hard times I have faced neither about being cliché. It’s just what I feel very genuinely; from the bottom of my heart…
What I try to take out of such situations –though I can only manage to do it in an averagely fair extent—is that you need to reorganize yourself. Having conflicts with oneself becomes pretty habitual if you do not put a tab onto it in the early times…Accept that you have gone wrong and are overdoing certain things…Think over what you say and what you do; control you feelings…Have a deep breath and a deep look inside and it will guarantee you some difference in thought; if not all…Think rationally, not emotionally…I know its not that easy, but give it a try…Oh! Now let me put an end to this discourse... Yet another cliché…
Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I am a peace after putting my random quizzes onto paper…so meet you soon… Hope I will write something meaningful the next time!!
Till then…
CIAO!! :-) :-)
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